how you know and decide on what to do or want to do

it is the question of me finding what i will do after my graduation. there may be so many options, while i am not skilful. basically two distinctive futures awaits me. 1) I work for savings and go abroad for volunteering or another paid work. 2. I am loaned more money and go abroad straightforwardly. then continue working.

arrrr, it's tough. the one who decides on this is not intelligent/wise persons but only me. no one else substitutes for yourself.

i am probably so bad because while i'm stuck at things like this, what i study is people in suffering. if you compare their pain with my feeling.... it only tells me "what makes you think over but not act?"

that's it! think globally act locally! go local. i'm not very sure, but i should go for local actions.