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it is the question of me finding what i will do after my graduation. there may be so many options, while i am not skilful. basically two distinctive futures awaits me. 1) I work for savings and go abroad for volunteering or another paid work. 2. I am loaned more money and go abroad straightforwardly. then continue working.
arrrr, it's tough. the one who decides on this is not intelligent/wise persons but only me. no one else substitutes for yourself.
i am probably so bad because while i'm stuck at things like this, what i study is people in suffering. if you compare their pain with my feeling.... it only tells me "what makes you think over but not act?"
that's it! think globally act locally! go local. i'm not very sure, but i should go for local actions.
arrrr, it's tough. the one who decides on this is not intelligent/wise persons but only me. no one else substitutes for yourself.
i am probably so bad because while i'm stuck at things like this, what i study is people in suffering. if you compare their pain with my feeling.... it only tells me "what makes you think over but not act?"
that's it! think globally act locally! go local. i'm not very sure, but i should go for local actions.
Was it because of the dream I had? Even though I had not had no idea of the content, I felt something left inside of me. What if you were one of the likes of me you would try to help yourself feel better?
Well while I am just writing this entry, I am getting a feeling that the reason I had the feeling is from yesterday. I was thinking of a close friend/soul mate whom I don't have. You know if you really focus on things you don't have or things you think you'd never get in reality you'll feel kind of empty/disgrace/less power/less respect or maybe even apathy. Arouse those feelings the dream of yesterday brought me to this morning...
Wanted the reasons and the consequences though.. Knowing yourself really is not as easy as like see/analyse/judge others, but often even seems plain simple hard. Agree?
Well while I am just writing this entry, I am getting a feeling that the reason I had the feeling is from yesterday. I was thinking of a close friend/soul mate whom I don't have. You know if you really focus on things you don't have or things you think you'd never get in reality you'll feel kind of empty/disgrace/less power/less respect or maybe even apathy. Arouse those feelings the dream of yesterday brought me to this morning...
Wanted the reasons and the consequences though.. Knowing yourself really is not as easy as like see/analyse/judge others, but often even seems plain simple hard. Agree?
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Oops, I didn't write a blog in English for a while, whilst I did a few in Japanese.
Well let me say about today when was the very end of the OPC - Oceania Peace Conference held the other day. It's because we together could finally have a drink meeting for celebrating the success. Yea there were many at the Centre. Wasn't it around 30 ppl? It sounds really many, though ppl came and went sometimes. Drink, eating, singing, performances, joking etc..
Till 11:30 at the centre... Wasn't that late my first time? Apart from that, what's interesting for me is that all ppl stayed till the end were Japanese and the like. This means I guess that people from Japan are not really industrious/serious but in fact fun-seekers/easygoing, despite that I believed. Other nationalities, including local people, came back home much eariler than us. Really. Ah, I should've remembered about the today's soccer game I heard of. This was probably part of why.
I really liked N's song for her hus. The song was the same that she sang for him at thier wedding. How romantic like that sweet made me feel melting. That three Malay girls' performance was excellent as well. Really like I saw and was touched that each of them, as they took turns, danced, sanged and played the piano one another, they might be able to do every artistic performance. I always feel this way but I am wondering of how artictic they are and how misterious coincidence that they are here together to study as the same university from one same country.
I would be continuing more and more. However, time limit doesn't allow me to do so. I can never say to others that this way is perfect. In contrast, I feel I will definitely be able to change myself this way and will show the change toward happiness to create and treasure others' values.
Well let me say about today when was the very end of the OPC - Oceania Peace Conference held the other day. It's because we together could finally have a drink meeting for celebrating the success. Yea there were many at the Centre. Wasn't it around 30 ppl? It sounds really many, though ppl came and went sometimes. Drink, eating, singing, performances, joking etc..
Till 11:30 at the centre... Wasn't that late my first time? Apart from that, what's interesting for me is that all ppl stayed till the end were Japanese and the like. This means I guess that people from Japan are not really industrious/serious but in fact fun-seekers/easygoing, despite that I believed. Other nationalities, including local people, came back home much eariler than us. Really. Ah, I should've remembered about the today's soccer game I heard of. This was probably part of why.
I really liked N's song for her hus. The song was the same that she sang for him at thier wedding. How romantic like that sweet made me feel melting. That three Malay girls' performance was excellent as well. Really like I saw and was touched that each of them, as they took turns, danced, sanged and played the piano one another, they might be able to do every artistic performance. I always feel this way but I am wondering of how artictic they are and how misterious coincidence that they are here together to study as the same university from one same country.
I would be continuing more and more. However, time limit doesn't allow me to do so. I can never say to others that this way is perfect. In contrast, I feel I will definitely be able to change myself this way and will show the change toward happiness to create and treasure others' values.
J-chan and I met up in the city today. That is why yesterday she just got the sufficient result of the IELTS test, which she was waiting with anxiety for a long time and we wanted to celebrate together=) We hadn't see for a while, while she was free. I was the one who was very busy. Phew.
It's interesting to mention about that ramen shop on George St. You know the shop which is a bit new, come up 1/2 years ago? The other day before the meeting, we were talking about the shop, so went there. It is good! For me actually very good. I had a miso ramen and she had a seafood ramen. Mine was very close enough to what I eat in Japan! Tasty.
Then what's funny is that she knew and was saying she was talking a lot and sometimes needed to listen to others but couldn't do so. Haha. For me it in turn comes to the reason why I feel her cozy though. Regarding this, she said exactly what I heard from L, which led me to think something. That was that she has once realised she knew a lot about her close friends, whilist she knew little about them because she talked and talked on the one hand but they didn't on the other hand. As a consequence, at that time she lost her belief in them like that she might've doubt if they were her friends. It was so shocking for her.
In contrast, for me I am bad at talking completely. Therefore, by listening to others I make/keep a relationship and don't talk much or sometimes insufficiently. That's why I know a lot about them but they seem not to know about me. It's also unbalanced in a different way. Well, that unbalance may make J and me close on the contrary.
What she called me her bestfriend made me happy! That sounds a bit embarrassing usually. However, hearing it from her sounded just great! Because I like her as much as she likes me? Otherwise, it's hard for me to say you're my bestfriend?
Well, after the meeting, we totally missed today's main event Riverfire that is the annual biggest event in Brisbane!
It's interesting to mention about that ramen shop on George St. You know the shop which is a bit new, come up 1/2 years ago? The other day before the meeting, we were talking about the shop, so went there. It is good! For me actually very good. I had a miso ramen and she had a seafood ramen. Mine was very close enough to what I eat in Japan! Tasty.
Then what's funny is that she knew and was saying she was talking a lot and sometimes needed to listen to others but couldn't do so. Haha. For me it in turn comes to the reason why I feel her cozy though. Regarding this, she said exactly what I heard from L, which led me to think something. That was that she has once realised she knew a lot about her close friends, whilist she knew little about them because she talked and talked on the one hand but they didn't on the other hand. As a consequence, at that time she lost her belief in them like that she might've doubt if they were her friends. It was so shocking for her.
In contrast, for me I am bad at talking completely. Therefore, by listening to others I make/keep a relationship and don't talk much or sometimes insufficiently. That's why I know a lot about them but they seem not to know about me. It's also unbalanced in a different way. Well, that unbalance may make J and me close on the contrary.
What she called me her bestfriend made me happy! That sounds a bit embarrassing usually. However, hearing it from her sounded just great! Because I like her as much as she likes me? Otherwise, it's hard for me to say you're my bestfriend?
Well, after the meeting, we totally missed today's main event Riverfire that is the annual biggest event in Brisbane!
My motivation for study is not fixed, which is a little bit a problem. I mean that why I am here is that I wanted. However, contradictorily I also have the feeling of which I wanna escape from studying or like I cannot simply do because it's too much for me. I'm from IT field and then here doing a mix of political and social sciences.
Perhaps, I'm missing something. Friends whom I feel cozy with? Yeah I'm too alone. Hm, well, something motivates me. I'm not energetic without knowing exactly why.
Now I see. While writing I've got why. It's not complicated. It's just like I like but can't. I have not taken one step. I have been afraid I'm not capable. I am not good at English and lack of knowledge. I'm illogical either.
In contrast, I should have known how many times I said 'Daijoubu (You're all right)' today. Nonetheless, my enemy is always myself. It's often difficult to say, "I'm gonna be all right" to myself. This is like I need friends who motivate/encourage me, right? My school life is not like many friends around me. Well, then This would be my first step, which requires great courage for me.
Perhaps, I'm missing something. Friends whom I feel cozy with? Yeah I'm too alone. Hm, well, something motivates me. I'm not energetic without knowing exactly why.
Now I see. While writing I've got why. It's not complicated. It's just like I like but can't. I have not taken one step. I have been afraid I'm not capable. I am not good at English and lack of knowledge. I'm illogical either.
In contrast, I should have known how many times I said 'Daijoubu (You're all right)' today. Nonetheless, my enemy is always myself. It's often difficult to say, "I'm gonna be all right" to myself. This is like I need friends who motivate/encourage me, right? My school life is not like many friends around me. Well, then This would be my first step, which requires great courage for me.
I am trying to follow advices given by career counselling. Then, one of them is application for internship. Today, I applied for an internship programme of UNESCO and the location I chose is Maputo in Mozambique. I know I cannot speak French but what I wanted is Africa. I keep tying. Probably next is UNICEF one. I hope it will go well.
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